I hate nights when I wake up really early in the morning and can’t go back to sleep. It is very frustrating. Last night I woke up at 4 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep for another two hours. It’s the weekend, I should be sleeping in not waking up early! Last night I almost got up and went to the park to walk around because I didn’t think I would fall back to sleep.

I watched the movie Vacancy last night. The movie was alright but I have to say I am really tired of horror movies where no one ever tries to find a weapon. The movies where your sitting there watching and yelling at the people for doing something so stupid. I thought that movie last night was like that. I know that if I thought someone was going to try and kill me (I dream about it all the time), I would look for a weapon ASAP. Hey, maybe thats just me.

I have been racking my brain all day trying to come up with a good word to describe my mood. I failed, and I’ve come up empty handed.

A very close family friend died a few days ago. I always considered him my uncle even though we weren’t related by blood. It was a hard pill to swallow and it has reminded me so much of my other uncles passing.

Yesterday I came home and I let Miaya (my dog) out. She started wimpering and crying like she was in pain. I tried to comfort her but she just kept wimpering. Eventually I discovered a battery on the ground that had been punctured. My dog had ingested battery acid. I quickly looked it up online and called the Vet. They of course said she should come in immediately. Her tongue is burnt and she has hardly eaten anything. In reality, I really can’t afford to take her to the vet right now, but I will if I have to. She seems to be doing better though.

Then, this morning my Grandma called really early and said my other uncle was in the hospital having surgery. I hardly even knew he was sick. Too many things going on for me to concentrate. I’m surviving though, purely on the thought of happy and missed memories. Hope all is well.

I’ve been so down and out lately because of all the pitfalls I’ve come across. I decided to go out the other night. It was my first ‘club’ experience. It wasn’t one of the big clubs like Tao or Tryst that attract all of the tourists but a locals type club off of Jones. It’s not big and at the busiest time of the night probably had about 200 or so people. I’m not 21 so I had to ease my way in there. I haven’t drank alcohol in such a long time so I made sure that I was still sober by the end of the night. We went with a group of like 25-30 people. It was fun and I always thought I’d love to do that but I have discovered it’s definitely not my scene.

Why I didn’t like it:
It seemed like every guy that I danced with felt the need to loom around me all night. I danced with one guy who was constantly grabbing my but and then proceeded to massage my ear lobes (WTF?). I swear, I think he was going to try to kiss me and he probably would have gotten hit in the nose if he did. I made sure to quickly get out of that one. I had to dance with a guy named William. :/ When I told him why that bothered me he was like, ‘why’d he leave you for, you’re so beautiful’. Do we really need to start off our conversation like that? Besides, beauty isn’t what keeps a relationship going anyways. Someone from MySpace saw me there and now thinks we’re best buds. Another guy that was actually in our party made sure to sit next to me and keep his arm around me so I looked taken, he was buying me drinks. Then when he was leaving he wanted me to go with him. Umm, I don’t think so, your going to need to get me a whole heck of a lot drunker to get me to do that. NEXT! Another guy insisted on getting in my face and cursing at me because I wouldn’t go sit next to and flirt with his friend. Back up ass-hole, if your friend was a real man he’d come talk to me himself. Hip-hop music makes my stomach hurt after a while, it’s so loud you can’t talk to whoever your with. I would have preferred watching a band and sipping a glass of wine at a lounge any day. When I get to do it, I think I’ll prefer big band and jazz type music where I can dance swing and stuff.

What I did like:
Dancing was fun even in four inch heels I made sure they stayed on my feet all night. It got my mind off of everything else that is happening in my life at the moment. We made up a signal where I grab my ear if I needed rescuing, needless to say I found myself grabbing my ear a lot. The room was filled with reasonably attractive people that, if nothing else, were fun to look at. Attention from guys I didn’t know was a nice confidence booster. The fact that I got out of the house and did something new and fresh.

So the con’s way out-weighed the pro’s. Like I said, it’s not my scene. I may do it again but not very often.

Last night I went down to the strip. The Fountains of Bellagio show plays every 15 minutes after 8 p.m. so I sat and watched it for an hour. The show is different each time and I enjoy the music. I nearly cried during Celine Dion’s “My Heart Will Go On.” That music and the fountains, ah it was perfect. I get tingles and goosebumps just thinking about it. I wonder how many different versions of that show they have. I’ll find out one day even if I have to sit there all night. I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend. xoxo

We got some free tickets to the new show at Planet Hollywood, Stom Out Loud. We went to a 10:00 showing last night. I have to say it was a very cool show. It had some humor and well in general some good music. I think there should be a hazard warning for the first couple of rows though because their opening scene was with brooms. One of the guys broom head went flying off of the stick and off of the stage. They sure do hit things pretty hard in that show. I couldn’t help but wonder the whole time where they find people who do that. I mean, are these dancers, tap dancers, musicians, performers? Because I sure don’t think I could hold a beat like they were and it was loud. The only other problem I had with the show was that in between one of the sets the lights were off and there were people walking around with bright lights on their head. The one girl nearly blinded me about 5 times. I would suggest that they don’t look into the crowd and instead focus on a wall or the floor. I have to say the theater and the entrance to the theater were so neat to look at. They had street signs, shopping cats, hubcaps, ladders, and roulette tables hanging from every wall. I didn’t get a chance to take any pictures but if I see the show again I will. Anyways, I heard the entire show was comped because it gives them a chance to work out all of the kinks and free marketing. However, I saw the show yesterday (April 14) and the program said opening night is April 17, 2007 but I looked at the website and they are selling tickets. What’s up with that? Gotta love Vegas when you get free show tickets though. Hope everyone is doing well!

I have dreams nearly everynight that someone is trying to kill me. I always wonder if I am fore-seeing the future or something. I don’t know if this is just something I am terribly afraid of or what but I don’t like it. I am the kind of person that dreams a lot and my dreams seem almost real to me. Which kind of sucks because when I wake up I always have to ask myself and whoever else if the stuff really happened. It is pretty scary sometimes to not know what is reality and what is just a dream. Even worse is when you wish reality was a dream and your dream was reality.