It was pure luck, I could never do that based on skill.

Life’s good. so busy though. I’m live most of the time on my webcam though so you can see me if I’m home. I added it on the right.

In the last two and a half months I have dated three different guys, it’s never the same. Por que? They all just want to get laid. Where did all the respectable guys go? Statistics show that 70% of men cheat. I think that’s just the number that admit to it. I believe the current ‘date’ may have a girlfriend.

I’m keeping myself so ridiculously busy that I’ve become paranoid about having ‘alone’ time. I actually carry around a calender that I write dates in. So when I say I’m going to pencil you in, I’m not kidding.

I write here for three specific people.

I have been racking my brain all day trying to come up with a good word to describe my mood. I failed, and I’ve come up empty handed.

A very close family friend died a few days ago. I always considered him my uncle even though we weren’t related by blood. It was a hard pill to swallow and it has reminded me so much of my other uncles passing.

Yesterday I came home and I let Miaya (my dog) out. She started wimpering and crying like she was in pain. I tried to comfort her but she just kept wimpering. Eventually I discovered a battery on the ground that had been punctured. My dog had ingested battery acid. I quickly looked it up online and called the Vet. They of course said she should come in immediately. Her tongue is burnt and she has hardly eaten anything. In reality, I really can’t afford to take her to the vet right now, but I will if I have to. She seems to be doing better though.

Then, this morning my Grandma called really early and said my other uncle was in the hospital having surgery. I hardly even knew he was sick. Too many things going on for me to concentrate. I’m surviving though, purely on the thought of happy and missed memories. Hope all is well.

Here is my dream interpretation from last night:

To dream that you are shopping for or buying clothes, signifies your anxieties about trying to fit in or being “well-suited” for your changing role.

If your forget your shoes, then it suggests that you are leaving restraints behind you. You are refusing to conform to some idea or attitude.

To see a scratch in your dream, suggests that you are feeling anxiety about having to start over or begin something “from scratch”.

All of that in one dream and I really have no idea what they are all talking about.

So…I saw one of my ex’s today. I never realized how many emotions tie into something like that. Here’s how it felt:

First, there was a wave of excitement as ‘Is that really him?’ crossed through my head.
Then, there was a sudden nervousness as I realized it was. Seriously, my legs and hands started shaking I was so nervous. I immediately dialed the first number I found: Sammy. I had to have someone to talk to.
Next thing I know I’m giggling uncontrolably.
(yea, I have to admit, he looked pretty good.)
I was all smiles after that.

Since the start of this website I have had two serious relationships and some less serious/short lived ones (like the one I’m in now, that I’m probably going to end by 12:00 tonight). I’ll be honest and say I think about both of these ’serious relationship’ guys probably on a daily basis. Not obsessively but more like they cross my mind. Usually it’s because something reminds me of them. I’m not going to say which Ex I saw, I’ll just let you make your own guess.

So what’s new in my life?? I’ve found a new love in a place called P.F. Changs. I saw Transformers twice (midnight showing and matinae a few days later), it quite possibly is my new favorite action movie. The Simpson’s Movie was exactly what I expected it to be. It was funny, not very clever, but what did you expect from The Simpsons? Regardless, I liked it. I finally saw 300. Wow. Quite an amazing movie if I do say so myself. I love comic book style movies. The last Harry Potter book was awesome, she couldn’t have ended it better. Good thing I read it quickly because my dog chewed it up. The latest movie however was a little bit of a dissapointment. I seem to be going to sing kareoke and awful lot lately. At the place I go to you even get a CD so you can laugh at yourself later. I think I may just post that soon. Big Love is my newest obsession. Someone please tell me why any man would want more than one obnoxious, annoying, nagging wife.

It’s Friday. I’m down for a party tonight. I actually have a date but I’m hoping to get out of it. My off-line life starts to take over sometimes guys, sorry. Hence, not so many updates. My horoscope recently read:
Your schedule may be getting so out of control that something has to give, for you might not be able to keep up with your commitments. Remember, if you have over-extended yourself, it’s better to cut back now than to wait until it’s too late. Setting priorities will help you establish manageable boundaries to create more balance in your life.

That couldn’t be more true.