So I put up this new layout and for some reason I’m just not happy with it so I’m going to leave my journal up like this until I fix it. I feel like it has to be perfect because I only expect perfection from myself now haha. It might take me all weekend but I’ll fix it. I’m nervous and exited about this weekend. I don’t like being by myself and my Mom is leaving all weekend. I know that I said Tish and I would have a party but to be honest, I haven’t invited anyone so if anyone wants to come feel free to stop by, alcohol and a jucuzzi, and me in a bikini! Anyways, I just don’t like the idea of being in this house for three days all by myself. Oh well, I’ll survive unless someone breaks in and decides to kill me. j/k

I’ve been so stressed out lately. Work is awful, I seriously want to pull my hair out when I’m there. I hate being there and I hate getting up in the morning for that place. They don’t even pay me enough. I just don’t like being yelled and cursed at all day by these customers. I really just want to yell back at them. I don’t think I’ll ever like any job I have. No matter what I’m always going to be hating it. Besides work I’ve got school, and just the future in general. Plus my little babies, they’re four weeks old now and up and running around. OoOhHhH so cute, I should post pictures.

On the brightside, my tattoo stopped hurting, it is now just peeling an awful lot and it did a little minor scabbing but nothing major. I’m happy with it though but it does need a little bit more color on her legs because it faded away and turned yellow. At least I’m able to wear jeans.

I’ve deciced that I hate/loathe self-checkouts. I think they are a waste. I guess they might help if there wasn’t a ton of dumb people in front of you that don’t know what they’re doing. It’s not that hard, wait a second before you put your item in the bag and don’t take your bags away right away because then it says, “item removed from bagging area.” Yes, I spent a good ten minutes standing behind a bunch of morons that didn’t know what they were doing. It made wanted to go up there and do it for them. Then the ladys credit card was declined. The whole point of those things is to get you out faster but they sure didn’t help me. I’m done ranting.

I can’t believe this hurricane Katrina (darn that name!!!) I’ve been watching the news and it’s so overwhelming the way some of these people died. I mean some of them drowned in their own homes. The news coverage has been crazy too, so many people are put out and have no homes. How would you eat? It’s amazing some of the destruction mother nature can do. I’m going to send some money to Red Cross here pretty soon, so everyone else should too!

I spent my entire day making this. Phew, from the minute I woke up I was inspired. I have to say though it didn’t turn out all that bad. I finished everything too so as not to post half a layout. Instead I did everything. I don’t know if I’ll be able to post the gallery tonight because it still needs coding. I think I’m going to leave that as it is for now. So what do you think? A little rough at first.

I can’t believe I just spent my entire day doing this. I had so many other things I wanted to do like cleaning and more cleaning. I guess I can clean tomorrow, I’m glad this is done because I’ve been wanting to change the layout for a while now. I wanted to go shopping and do my nails, oh well. I have a three day weekend next week, I’ll catch up then.

I saw something very interesting the other day. I was on the freeway going home and I usually get off on Eastern. Well when I got there there was a huge traffic back up. I see this red Cadillac cruising down the shoulder and passing me. Which of course made me mad. Anyways, I got back on the freeway and went to Charelston because I didn’t want to wait. So I’m cruising down Charelston and I get to sloan and out of no where comes this red Cadillac speeding past me in the shoulder almost hitting someone that was turning. He then went right thorugh the red light on Sloan and two seconds later a cop pulls up. Why couldn’t that cop have pulled up three second sooner and seen this red Cadillac just racing down the street. I wish I could drive like that and not get caught.

This tattoo hurts so bad. haha and now it’s peeling and itchy, I just can’t win. I’m watching the VMA’s. It’s so addicting, I don’t know why but I watch it every year. I wish I could get over it but I just can’t, I love seeing all these stars and seeing who wins. I love seeing their clothes haha. Something crazy always happens on these shows so I like to know about it. I remember when Madonna and Britney Spears kissed and I was like WHOA. I think I got on the phone and called my cousin right at that moment because I was horrified. LOL Well I better get to watching and I’m going to go find something to eat. Goodnight.

What do you think? I just got it done Sunday evening. It’s a fairy sitting in the moon with a few stars, I drew her. I was excited and nervous at the same time. I went to see Aaron and Bad Apple and I think he did a wonderful job. I’m quite pleased actually, it did hurt. My Mom had described it to me as feeling like a knife. It did feel like a knife, quite a hot knife. It kind of tickled at times too. It didn’t hurt to bad as long as I kept breathing and closed my eyes. He said I did really good for my first tattoo. I think it hurts more now than it did when he was actually doing it. It’s sooo sore right now. It hurts everytime I touch it. OUCH! Click here to see the detail. I’m going to take Tish and Amy to go get theres soon because I kind of went without them. I love you guys though.

Anywas, If you live by me, or you’ve driven down Hollywood at Carey recently you’ll know what I’m talking about. Anyways, right at Hollywood and Carey they just built two new schools. It’s a really big street with just a center turn lane. Well right at the intersection they just put a cement divider. It’s really big. Now, I almost hit this thing the other day just because you come up over the hill and you can’t really see it, it is kind of out of place too. It sits like in the lane. Anyways, I was driving to work today and there was this red Jeep GrandCherokee in front of me a little ways. I saw her go UP and then a big white dust ball went into the air. She was quite a ways in front of me but I could tell as I was driving behind her, her car was leaning. When we got to Hollywood and Lake Mead, she pulled into the Chevron and I saw she had no tire, she was riding on her rim. That would have sucked and I would have been pissed. Glad it wasn’t me, but she had to have been going pretty fast.

Anywas, on Friday we got everyone together and went ot see the Skeleton Key. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t great. I thought it was kind of funny actually, or maybe it was just being there with Amy, Tish, Jeremiah, and Danny. Anyways, we met up with Sammy and Vernon afterwards and went to Cold Stone. After that we went to he Kareoke place where yes, I sang. hahaha That was a ton of fun. I did post pictures up in the gallery under suprise. Enjoy.

So, I’m at work and I should probably get working because I’ve been sitting here doing this for a while. hehe I’m so productive.

It’s late, going on 1 am. I’m not really tired though. I came home from work today and went straight to bed. I woke up around 11:00 and I tried to go back to bed but I couldn’t so now here I am. I told someone I’d burn them some CD’s so that is what I am doing. How nice of me, they have to be done by tomorrow. It’s been a while since my last entry. I went on my first quad ride. haha you know, one of those dirt bike like things with four wheels. I can tell you right now, I will never get on one of them again. Scared the crap out of me. It was probably just the person I was riding with but I will never do it again. Which reminds me of my first motorcycle ride which also scared me but I would do it again.

I had this irate customer call me at work today and he really pissed me off. In the ten minutes I was talking to him he probably pissed me off more than anyone has since I’ve been working there. He wouldn’t let me get a word in. Everytime he would say something I’d start to talk and reply to what he was saying but he’d cut me off and he’d keep talking. So I’d shut up until he was done again then when he would stop I’d start up but he cut me off saying that I was lecturing him. ?!?!? I wasn’t lecturing him I was trying to fix the problem but he wasn’t listening to me. haha I said, “Sir, you’re lecturing me and you’re not even letting me get a word in so I can reply to what you’re saying.” he cut me off again after this and said that he was the customer and he was aloud to lecutre me all he wanted. At one point I just kept talking while he was trying to cut me off. LOL and we were both just talking and then we both stopped and no one said anything. I think he was even more pissed after he talked to me. Oh well, I can’t please them all. I tried but he was making it very difficult he ended up saying he was going to get his lawyer and he hung up on me. It was just so funny I went stalking around the office complaining to everyone. He was an idiot though, just wanted out of his contract but it wasn’t happening. haha in fact, my manager was canceling him out today with all the fees so he’s going to get the statment in the mail tomorrow for hmm I’d say somewhere around $350. Let him get his lawyer. Jerk, he’s going to be pissed.

Doop Doop Doop. I’ve gotten cookies twice in the past two days. The sad part is, I’ve eaten them. I’m afriad to weigh myself now haha because I haven’t been doing so well on the diet. I haven’t worked out either I’ve been so tired. I come home I sleep or I come home and there are people here and I have to entertain. There aren’t enough hours in the day. I wish I was one of those people who could go through the whole day off of only six hours of sleep but no not me I need my full eight or more hours otherwise I’m nearly falling asleep. Speaking of wich I should probably go to bed so I can get in some sleep before I have to be at work again. GAH One more day till Friday, whoop whoop. I get to see my Amy on Firday, YES!!!! I don’t think I’ve seen her all Summer. Hopefully she can stay out late. Goodnight.

Aww, the babies are growing up! They’re so adorable and just barely begining to walk. They’re stumbling all over the place. I can’t wiat until they open their wee little eyes and are little balls of fluff. Okay, so what’s new? Not much here excpet that I find myself wishing I had more money. I think I’m going to start either web designing or making my own customer sweaters for profit. I’m leaning more towards the sweaters. OR I could just start selling myself because I’m sure that would seel I’ve found myself really liking this guy, or that guy lately (I can’t make up my mind) and knowing they like me back… You know, how they sometimes make it kind of obvious. It’s those little things, how they make sure they say goodbye to you at least three times. The way they look at you when you’re not looking. The way they find some way just to talk to you… Well not interested in that right now I’m waiting until after a few more trips to California, I’ll see what I can turn up there. Doo Doo Doo.

I’m going to shut up now. I find myself running into people all the time. I can’t seem to go anywhere without running into someone from my past. It seems like I’m running into all the wrong people. I’ve been seeing a lot of people from Kid’s Quest lately too. I’ve realized that I do miss it there. Simply because I never thought of it as “work” it was just something I did everyday. I can’t think that about this job now. At this job, I just want to shoot myself most of the time. I was thinking about looking for a new job but something told me not to quit, so I haven’t yet. Now, I think that I’m going to be stuck in that same desk with the same job description answering phones and filing forever. I was just about to move upstairs but no, the girl they were going to hire decided she didn’t want the job. So, I’m stuck there BLAH. I won’t move up until someone quits which sucks.

It’s been raining so much I haven’t been able to wash my car. I’m afriad to wash it because I know right when I do, it’s going to start pouring. Everyday I’ve put it off because I look up and it’s cloudy but it still hasn’t rained, at least not that I know of. So my car is filthy which I hate. Tomorrow is Friday, yaay. I’m going to go find something to eat because I haven’t eaten anything. Goodnight.